week 22

i'm already at my 22nd week of pregnancy. photos were taken off of my brother's instagram. it has been awesome for the past few weeks, gaining back my appetite, being able to go to work and actually do work, laugh a bit more, having cravings, and not puking. until this morning. my tummy has grown but somehow my colleagues keep on pointing out that i am barely showing. i don't know if i should take that as a compliment or what. the baby has been busy kicking up a storm in there. sometimes i find myself purposely sit in an uncomfortable position (for him) so that i can feel his kicks.

Arwen has been able to feel the baby move and she's so ecstatic and amazed by it all. she saw the remote control i put on my tummy jerk and immediately thinks that her brother has super powers. she's into that weird phase right now. between believing in princesses and superheroes. and still figuring the boys-girls role while planning for her own wedding in the midst of it all. yup, she's too mature for her age. i promise i wont stereotype gender-specific roles for her, except for times she wants to go to the toilet and also how she should sit properly while wearing a skirt or a dress. but if she wants to be a sword wielding, zombie annihilating, superpower unleashing, magic concocting, rubber horse riding princess in a blue dress with a tiara, fairy wings, silver glittered shoes and pink nailpolish, and calling out "aye, aye, captain!" when i call for her - that's exactly who she'll be. despite all that confusion, she's gonna be a wonderful teacher-rolemodel-leader for her brother, i'm sure.

on a separate note, tomorrow we'll be off to langkawi for my brother's wedding and a babymoon - if i can call it that. bags are packed, executive taxi booked, hotel booked, only the cats are left to be left for boarding. though i wont promise but i will be posting and instagramming photos of the wedding and our vacation.

i'm sorry for being so blah but keeping up with this blog has been boring and i'm just not really in the mood to write or do anything but sleep all day long. i don't even download stuff on the net anymore because it's so life-consuming.

pregnancy updates

Thank you all with the kind thoughts and well wishes in here, FB and twitter over the past weeks. really appreciate it. i know there's nothing much anybody can say or do to help me, even my own husband is helpless and clueless, but by not being smart asses and give me unsolicited advice to keep calm and think happy thoughts, trust me, you're doing a lot for me already. so thanks for that.

when i pregnant the first time, it was my pet peeve when people, especially guys, try to give me their 2 cents about pregnancy, without me asking for it. i found out, it still is a pet peeve. when i was at the peak of my puking phase, when i was puking more than 12 times a day, a guy in my office told me that the reason i was puking so much is my body's way of getting rid of all the toxic from the junk i ate pre-pregnancy. in my head i went all screaming crazy in spanish like Sofia Vergara. in my head lah.

i've reached my 13+ weeks already and have started to show a bit. i have been showing very early this time around. as early as 9 weeks. but i already have a pooch to begin with, you know, where i store all the toxic from all the junk i ate before i got pregnant, by my uterus and my 5-7kg sudden weight drop kinda pushed the pooch a little bit more forward, earlier than it's intended to. with arwen, i was only really showing when i turned 16 weeks.

Belly Gallery : 9+ weeks

although now the puking has slowly subsided and getting lesser in a day, i'm still not quite out of it yet. some days, if i'm lucky, i dont puke. some days, i puke just once or twice but there are still days i puke more than 5 times in one hour. i got admitted again for fluids a few of weeks ago. 2nd time in a matter of 20 days. i reached the office on Monday morning, feeling lightheaded to begin with but figured i could blaze through it. the moment i stepped out of the lift to tag in at the front door, i just went blank and dropped. i came to a few seconds, maybe minutes later with the voices of some polis bantuan and kakak cleaner in my head. one of the kakak cleaner membebel at me for not eating something in the morning like as if she's my mother. i walked slowly to my office which is jauh gila, like 200m away from the front door where i fainted, called my husband and told him to pick me up from the office and take me to the clinic. i know i must admit myself to pints and pints of fluids again. there's no ifs, ands or buts about it.

on a brighter news, i have started feeling the flutters of baby in my tummy, especially when i've been sitting too long or when i suddenly take something really cold. the flutterings are much more pronounced in the morning and in the evening. oh, we saw baby moved a lot on our last checkup earlier this month. the baby was kicking so much that it looks like he/she was trying to run out of my tummy, he/she was and turning about and waving his/her hands. so cute. the doctor even commented that the baby was 'bersilat' in my tummy. we also got to hear the heartbeat for the first time. very good, very strong. times like these, seeing and feeling the baby moves makes all the puking just sort of worth it. SORT OF.

Baby at 10+ weeks

bump update : 28 weeks

sorry that the picture's kinda blurry because some of the overhead halogen lights in our room blew out. and i need about RM1k to get me a decent flash gun. RM1k i cant afford to simply throw away over materialistic things because the baby needs it more. pregnancy is humbling like that.

but yay! we've made it to the 3rd trimester. only 12 more weeks to go till delivery. insyallah. now the baby has done much of the growing and basically just have to put on more baby fat. which means that i, too, will be much fatter faster. faster than you can spell fat. the final home stretch means that i have to be more wary of my bodily changes. like vaginal discharge. heart palpitations. gaining too much weight. shortness of breaths. intense lower back pains. painful boobs. how many times the baby moves in an hour. all the things that could mean something could be happening. i just have to be cautious of every little thing.

although my belly and boobs and butt are growing into venus of willendorf -like proportions, i'd still much rather deliver stone-hard constipated shit through piles as big as pears than be caught in maternity dresses tents in public. i still haven't bought any maternity tops and still can wear the black maternity pants i bought at 2 months pregnant. and so far still have been wearing clothes from my previous life to the office and other places. like in this picture for instance, taken after i got back from work yesterday, the green MNG mesh top i'd like to call jala was bought 2 years ago at brands outlet store for about RM20. the black tank i wore underneath was actually my black velvet prom dress. yup. my school prom dress from 1996.

pictured here :

bump update : 25.6 weeks

obviously, i've put on more weight. a whopping 5 kilos in a month! which made my OB worried and told me to watch what i eat so i wont risk having high blood pressure in the later part of the pregnancy. the most crucial later part he means. so basically, no more ice cream. ironically, my brother brought home about 4 tubs of baskin & robbins just after my checkup. argh! the torture!

and no, we still haven't found out the baby's sex yet. i know, right? women my gestational month has probably bought gender-specific bips for their unborn. actually the doctor saw something that might look like scrotums. or probably swollen labia. so he can't really tell for sure. right now it's still either or. but he did say, although he won't confirm until he sees a penis flapping around between the baby's legs, his best guess would be ...

... wait for it ...

A GIRL!

but lets not get to excited just yet. it's still unconfirmed.

bump update : 23 weeks

taken just this morning.
bad hair day comes with the pregnancy.
nice glowing skin also included.
the just-got-out-of-bed face ... model's own.

bump update : 21 weeks

if my belly seems to be protruding a little too forward considering its gestational age, it's only probably because of that top i'm wearing.

other recent updates, nothing much happening really. well, except :

• i've been eating more.
• i've gained back about 2 kilos of the 4 i've lost.
• and also started to puke again too. for two consecutive days now. last night, and this morning - this morning was the worse because i had milk and milk make puke smell really like puke. not quite sure what is wrong, coz just like you, i thought i'd be over this by now.
• i've started to feel the baby move now. soft thuds from the outside. and much more intense from the inside. last night, i played tap the belly with the baby. and the baby taps me back. weird feeling but it's so cool. we've got an interactive baby!
  
• back aches are much more intense now too. can't imagine how it's gonna be like come 3rd trimester.
  
• my sleeping positions are now determined by the thing that grows inside of me. if i sleep on my left for too long, the baby will give me a twitch and thus, make me flip over to the other side.
  
• i fart like an old lady now. i can power up a lightbulb for 2 hours with just my wind and methane alone.
  
• i have cravings for caffeinated caramel fraps. is that bad?
  
• i need a haircut.
  

bump update : 19 weeks

i know. i'm lagging behind on this bump update thing. even taking pictures once a week is such a chore for me. even if i don't have to do much but stand against the wall and show the belly while my husband do all the work. my procrastination, along with my laziness and disgustingness. it's been brushed off on the husband as well.

now that the bump is out there for everyone to see (and also unfortunately, fondle - i'll write about this newfound pet-peeve later), i guess i can try to put extra effort to at least update this once a week.

definitely, maybe.

bump update : 14 weeks

told you i'm showing. although i'm not sure if that's the baby or the nasi lemak i had that morning. kindly disregard how gross and ugly i look with no makeup and the 4-day unwashed hair laden with hormonal grease and probably some chunks of vomit. but look at my boobies. i grew more!