now my shoulders can relax

we, i mean ayis finally bought a stroller for arwen. after such a long deliberation and usha sana sini tormenting the sales personnel to open and fold and twist and turn and bring down and lift up and take in and take out and questioning this and complaining that over many, many, MANY strollers (some i cant even pronounce), we finally opted for this litter bugger, i mean buggy.

the sweet cherry SCR 1 stroller. malaysian brand, china made, bought at Jusco AU2 for only RM279.00. why this? because we're a couple of cheapskates. what can i say?

no, actually this stroller meets almost all of our requirements like :

1. easy to fold - check!
2. a 3-wheeler - well yeah, sort of.
   
3. able to fit into the boot of a satria - err.. check! (i seriously wanted the zooper zydeco, but it's too bloody bulky and i wouldn't want for us to get a bigger car just because we bought a stroller that's too big to fit into the boot, i mean that's just crazy!)
   
4. able to fully recline (not like the expensive but not so baby friendly Quinny Zapp) - check!
5. able to last till baby is about 4 or 17kg, whichever comes first - check!
   
6. light enough to carry (it's about 9kg. not like the other one i had my eye on, the Quinny Speedi ) - check!
   
7. we need just a stroller, not an entire system where we have to get an additional bucket seat (like the graco mosaic) - check!
8. ada cup holder for parents. for 2 cups lagi - you know, for our starbucks cups on the go
   
9. cheap and affordable (so that, in case arwen doesnt like it that much, it's not really that big a deal) - check! check! check!

we have yet to try arwen on it. it's still in the box and might take us a week to put it together. not because we're a bunch of dumbasses who cant figure out directions and diagrams (come on, give us some credit!) .. but because we're competitive procrastinators.

i wish that it came with a rain cover. worse come to worst, we'll just make-shift a big rain coat or a big plastic as a rain cover. and i also wish they had it in a different colour, less gender specific. they only had one left, in pink and i want to keep this till at least another baby. and what if the next one is a boy? would i want him in a pink anything? the husband was all about metrosexual empowerment in my face and said:

"hey, so what now, boys arent allowed to wear pink? i have a pink shirt and a few of bright pink t-shirts, so does that make me a pussy? are you living in the 60's? get on with it woman!"

fine, whatever.

the mamamaterial girl

how? very ikea ad or not?

since i'm gonna be busy till probably next year, and probably wont get a chance to ask santa husband, family or friends for my birthday gift. i shall post my birthday slash christmas slash new year gift here. i do this now to give you a grace period of 2 weeks, so you can muster the nerve to sell your kidney in the black market to get me any one of these.

see, for those who doesnt understand the difference between branding and advertising, this here, what i am doing, is called ADVERTISING. it's speaking to one person, i.e. YOU, and maybe get to influence everybody else in the process. the more persons i get my message across to, the better the potential of me getting at least one of what i want.

or maybe just perhaps, in my case, this is called whining. or wishing out loud. like, REALLY LOUD. seriously.

what i want :

1. canon powershot G10. i know, i know, i already have my precious canon eos 400D. why am i asking for this then? because ... because ... because, i want a really good, opposite from bulky semi-pro camera that i can carry everywhere in my bag, without hurting my neck or shoulders even if i don't intend to use it. and also because i'm really tamak.
   
   
2. a black gothic-inspired chandelier for our room (or future hypothetical house). because it's so stylish!
   
   
3. canon speedlight external flash for my dSLR. because everything looks better when the light is good. even me. and plus, it can be mounted on the G10 too! (i think)
   
   
4. the big-ass daisy print ikea bedding. thank you, suami!
   
   
5. new glasses. a thinner rim. in black. or perhaps i need to start using contacts again now that arwen's getting really grabby with her hands. got it later after raya in 2009. thank you, suami!
   
   
6. nightcap mary jane by crocs. dont think they have it here in malaysia yet. crocs are really getting much more fancier these days. i'm loving their designs. not nightcap but still a croc, thank you, suami!
   
   
7. "whatever you think, think the opposite" book by Saatchi & Saatchi's ex-executive creative director, the legendary Paul Arden. my brother has one. but i want one for myself. as a creative bible, of sorts. thank you, falie!
   
   
8. this really cute but really expensive uppercase scarf you can't find at F21. or anywhere else but the net. indulge the dormant graphic designer in me, please.
   
   
9. 1 terabyte of external storage. because my 80 gig hard drive has gone all wonky and pretty much useless.
   
   
10. my own personal computer at home that meets my demands in terms of space and speed, user-friendlytability (a pc-user would think otherwise. i'm a mac person, what can i say? i love mac!), less-hassle, bulk-free, clutter free, very designer-ish.
    
    
11. izzi wireless broadband. because that's the only wireless broadband that seems to work in our room. if and when i get this, i can read your blogs from home at night or whenever, and actually work when i'm at work. seriously people, your blogs are really addictive. even when all you do is post random boring photos of your kid(s), boyfriend/tunang/husband, and everything you eat and drink and buy. i cant get enough of it! i got a maxis. and then i sent it back after 6 months because i dont use it frequently as i expected so it's pretty much not worth paying the RM100+ every month.
    
    
12. BONUS!! are you reading this boss? i'm not all tak malu asking for people to buy me stuff, with at least 1 month bonus (you know we deserve at least that much), i can buy, if not one, some of these stuff myself.
    

not too much, kan?

email me at unlished79@yahoo.com for my address details should you want to send it over to my house and surprise me. kthxbye.

imperative thoughts

my brother just bought a 1 terabyte external hard drive. which makes me want one to. i'm just that kind of person. apa yang orang ada, dia pun nak jugak. tak boleh tengok orang lebih sikit. hah.

actually, that's only a part of the reason. the main reason is that my 80gig external harddrive dah kong. i think i've reformatted it about 20 million times, not including the one i did about 30 minutes ago. luckily, i managed to copy all the files into my iMac at work, which includes 45 gig of pictures (including my only soft copy of 7 gigs worth of wedding pictures), about 10 gigs of songs and some of my work portfolio (from 3 different agencies, very important), amongst other things. no, no porn. i dont need them. i'm married. hahahah. but there are some TV series and movies in the harddrive. so i transfered all 75 gig of stuff into my iMac and there are still about 50 gigs to spare for more random downloadation. gila best iMac ni! nak beli sebijik lah letak kat rumah.

i asked iz how much the terabyte costs him. "adelah dalam RM450" he said. *gulp* baik beli stroller for arwen, i thought. we've been putting this off for quite some time. and now, i think it's about time arwen needs a stroller. kesian dia kena lugged around everywhere in that carrier with a lot of contraptions, macam MiniMe. and then cannot tahan for long, kesian dia sakit, penat. actually, sakit and penat on me also lah kan. at least with a stroller, she can relax and lie in there and sleep whenever and however she wants to.

but nanti sure stroller tu jadi pushcart lah kan. sometimes i'd laugh silently looking at families that use their kid's stroller as trolley for when they go shopping. yeah, i'll laugh now but someday, i think i'll be doing the same thing.

what do you think?

taksub

this will be brief. i'm kinda busy. it's almost midnight and im still in the office. yes, im that busy . so fah ... the pictures at tikus-tikus gonna have to wait coz im getting all my gadgets (and life) in order. sorry about that. anyway, i just wanted to test out blogging on a new hand-me-down 20" iMac with about errr.. 230 (or so) gigafuckingbytes of storage!

ok. enough gloating. back to work.

finalfuckingly

you can never truly value something till you're deprived off it. i can't believe we went on working for six deadline-heavy days without internet.

one day is still acceptable, but after a couple of days, you'd start to get withdrawal symptoms - like feeling aches on your fingertips for being able to chat, you'd get all sweaty of anxiety because you can't read people's blogs anymore and YOU NEED TO KNOW WHAT THEY HAD FOR BREAKFAST BECAUSE IT'D MAKE OR BREAK YOUR DAY, SO HELP YOU GOD, you can feel your brain starting to atrophy because you can't google anything, you'd start to get nauseous because you've been so dependent on googling that now you've got to do the thinking on your own and your brain can't handle it.

after 3 days, you're certifiably insane.

work was challenging, to say the least. but finally, after much beckoning and complaining ... order is restored and all bitchings and whinings can go back to normal. yay!

programmed

i received quiet a gibe from some people when they found out i prefer sticking to the program mode on my canon slr. but our talented in-house photographer was at my side, thankfully. he said i should stick to what i'm comfortable with and just keep on shooting an mastering the art of seeing. it's not the technical aspect. it's not the gear. it's the eye.

hey p mode is cool, ok people.

had to change a new template too, apparently

i opened up my page today and found out that the black-orange popcorn template i love so much have gone all wonky like me. and so i wasted much more of my free time reformatting and customising a new ready-made template. well, at this point in my life right now, all sorts of changes are welcomed.

everything is and will be okay

so, i told off the fucker from interview number 2 whom felt was kencing-ing me into writing their company profile for free ... and this was what he said to me :

"the reason why i wanted you to re-write your copy is so that we can get it right the first time (?) .. we really wanted to employ you but since you're giving me this attitude ... nevermind then."

and then he slammed the phone down.

fucker.

i rather he thinks i have an attitude than thinking i'm a fool. the whole idea of an audition copy is to prove to that interviewer whether one has it or don't. obviously he doesnt think i have what it takes so why does he even bother to consider me in the first place ... right? nobody rewrites their audition copy. i haven't even signed any contracts whatsoever yet he's already treating me like i'm his kuli. wtf? thank god i havent signed anything. it was a good save, man.

speaking of being saved ... i've ressurected my iPod yesterday. it's all good and new now, everything seems to work perfectly. i've lost 2436 songs but at least my iPod works okay - i've already put in 1700 songs. and now i can finally proceed to finish my artworks.

i feel like somehow all the planets are orbiting and aligning right where they should be, like the signs are telling me that everything is back in order and i know that everything is gonna be okay.

burial or cremation?

i went back to the place where i purchased my ipod just now to make them fix my broken baby. i had to explain to 3 technical assistants, separately. the first one looked at my ipod as if it was his first time looking at a vagina - not really sure if he’s supposed to touch it or eat it, so the second dude took over and made me explain again what the problem was … but he seemed to not understand english that much so he passed me to the other guy like as if i’m some kind of cheap whore. i felt cheap. and then this other dude tried to help out, only after i explained again what happened to my ipod.

and the diagnosis: (or at least the gist of it as told in slurry but exaggerated incomprehensible engrish)

“… sorry, but your ipod? it was just its time…”



my ipod’s not broken …

it died!

something wrong with the hard drive, apparently. bad clusters. unfixable. gone. fuck it. i don’t understand all these technology mambo jambo juju mojo. might as well just tell me that there was a blood clot in one of the heart arteries and it traveled up the brain and resulted in aneurism*. or something.

first my camera. now my ipod. i must have done something really wrong to deserve this.



* i don't just watch grey's anatomy because of mc'dreamy and mc'steamy and all the doctor mc'hots. i learn.

whaddahell?

call it karma, call it bad feng sui, call it just pure fucking bad luck. i'm strangely superstitious and i can't help but think that ever since i've moved my cubicle to what used to be the ex-GM's door (they knocked off the wall between the studio and the GM's room in the name of expansion and restructuring, and extended the room a bit ... and my current corner (for another 7 days, at least) is right smack in what used to be the threshold of a door) ... i keep on losing stuff.

first, the songs and files in my computer. and then my camera. and then my job (tecnically yeah, i was the one who chose to quit ... but i am jobless, so please let me be melodramatic)

.... and now, all 2436 songs in my iPod are GONE.

GONE.

wiped out.

erased.

de-virginized.

GONE.

the bloody computer ate up all my songs. and i can't even restore it to its factory setting. well yeah, i could download back all the songs sampai koyak the company's internet bandwidth ... but heck.. i cant remember all 2436 songs.

can't believe i have to do this all over again.

the gig that almost was

i almost secured my first paid wedding photography gig. su's brother is about to get married somewhere in december and wondered if im interested to become his wedding photographer. since he liked the shots i took for cary & su at their reception in semenyih.

i was all excited and honoured and kembang and shit, and was about to call my brother to ask if i could borrow his olympus. and then my kembangness got deflated the moment su told me the event's gonna be held indoors at night. i suck at indoor night shots. i dont have the gears or any extra lighting equipment. the least that i need is probably a flash gun .. which costs almost RM1k. and i dont have the technical knowledge ... like adjusting the apertures and shutter speeds and ISOs and all that.

so i had to decline. im not about to ruin somebody's memory of a lifetime by my ignorance and suckiness.

hmmm.




maybe one day.

nomadic blogger

sorry.. had to move again. apparently some stupid blogstalking unclefuckers in the office managed to stumble upon my blog ... again ... no matter how hard i tried to cover it up. even i couldnt google my own page. how the hell did they found out about my new address, i dont know.

maybe someone's got too much time on their hands stalking others, and reading other people's lives because they haven't got much life of their own.

get a life lah fuckers!

i want! i want! i want!

so, ayis has got this friend who's also crazy about photography and cameras and apparently he could get the nikon D80 *pant pant pant drool* at a cheap-er price. the lens starter kit at RM3999.

we're planning to get this camera together. its gonna be our baby. ayis has really taken in to photography. he takes nice pictures too. surprises me to find out that he actually listened when i explained to him about compositions and angles and depth of fields and bokehs and rules of thirds ... all the boring stuff that makes photography fun.

we've surveyed almost all the camera shops in KL and the cheapest we could get was about RM4700. i mean the body kit alone is already about RM3800 something.

i want! i want! i want!

but unfortunately though, we cant buy it as a wedding hantaran as originally planned because we dont have the budget for a high-end camera, no matter how desperately we want it. i guess we'll just have to wait.

i just had to...

ye ye je aku nih kan .. dok maki hamun mencarut merabai macam macam bahasa, last last cave in gak. semua tu bravado je. deep down inside i'm cuak shitless bila dapat tau org ofis baca blog aku ni ...

so, im forced to change and edit a whole freaking lot on my blog. its my feeble attempt in making this blog dooce-proof (for now at least). first .. i started with my URL. only the chosen one will get to read my blog this time. and then i have to change my username ... because unlished is totally overused and too predictable in my case. i dubbed myself to something which sounds much more closer to home. and then i have to go back to my previous previous posts to omit out the names i've stupidly dropped during my green-blogger days.

well, you might say that it's easier for me to just delete everything i've written about work.

are you kidding me? penat-penat je tulis.. sayang plak nak delete.

forgive my indecisions

ok tak template baru nih? .. fine lah, so the graphics doesnt really complement my blog title ... or maybe i should change the title too.. again. but cant think of anything right now. something along the line of "life is not a movie" maybe ... bah, thats so cliche. actually i changed because the previous design is also apparently a template for the friendster blog. so it has lost its novelty to me.

for those who really know me would know easily amused and easily bored i can be. despite the unreasonable amount of job reqs piling up on my desk so late in the week prior to the week-long raya holiday .. (and forseeing many many more once the corporate restructuring take place after the festive week) .. i was bored out of my wits and hence, i needed some new addiction to amuse me.

i dont know crap about designing the web. all i know is, ... google and download. and then have fun figuring out how to customize the ready made designs. man, i shouldve taken multimedia seriously .. i shouldve concentrated in class during the flash tutorials. i shouldve done better in school. i shouldve thought about this then.

tapi tak kisahlah kan... at least i still know something or else i couldnt have gotten my page to look as awesome as this ... and i wouldnt even have my gallery hosted.

next up : setting up my own domain.

regrets, i have a few

if only i'd waited a couple of months, i could and would be getting this one instead!

nash is right. its not the camera. its the talent behind the camera. i can still take pretty pictures using a compact digital. since its impossible to get an SLR with the budget i had in mind, i think im gonna get this one. hopefully i'll get that bonus.

to fotopage or not to fotopage

ok. need some opinion. before i load all my photos into fotopages, i gotta know if its unlimited uploading? for free? or does it come in a package? somebody help. please.

i've just figured out how to link words to webpages. im so slow. anyway, thank you sam. now i gotta go edit my previous post so that people would know what i've been babbling on and on about.

wishlist

Nobody has to read this. Im not twisting your arms or head or your testicles or nipples or anything ... don’t worry. You don’t have to read this. well, unless if you’re filthy rich, (filthy meaning I don’t care how you make your money or where it came from). and somehow suddenly you got tired of making dirty money and you’re feeling really benevolent, (benevolent meaning you suddenly had an epiphany that heaven doesn't want people like you, that is if you belief in heaven, so you decided cancel out your sins by doing good and make halal your dirty money), by making somebody’s dreams come true with no strings attached (im talking about mine here, this is my blog so it always has to be about me, dammit) … then this is my wishlist.

• An iTrip or an AirPlay for my precious, so that I can finally take control of the radio on the 4-hour trip to JB for raya. No more migraine inducing dangduts from papa, thank god for technology.
• Another phone. I was thinking about this phone with its 2 megapixels but then again this other phone seems pretty impressive. 6 megapixels. DVD quality recording … downside though, no Bluetooth, and it’s a flip phone … im just too ‘ganas’ for flip phones
• I might as well just keep my existing phone and get a good digital SLR, maybe this camera that gives me visual orgasm or this camera that gives me multiple visual orgasms
• But its too damn big. Back to the this other phone. or this phone. or this other nice phone.
• An iBook. Why? coz it matches my precious.
• New paint for my room. Maybe in 3 different shades of brown. Since my ceiling is yellow. Yes, I have a yellow ceiling. And blue walls.
• To miraculously lose weight and stay that way. when i say miraculously, i mean i still get eat the way i do, but i don't have to work out, i don't have to take any diet pills and then run to the toilet every 2 hours, no puking too coz i love food and it'd be a waste
• New hair color
• New hairstyle
• New clothes
• A new hobby … not that I have one. Maybe I should start one. Been seriously considering photography.. so, I think I might need the camera that gives me multiple visual orgasms afterall.
• To start thinking about my future. Maybe buy a house. and a car or car. Maybe I should just start with getting driving lessons (and license) first.
• A new job. Yes ive been going on and on about this. But I want more money to achieve all of the above-mentioned. Unless, if you want to buy them for me.

Ok that’s it. Not too ambitious, mostly really narcissistic and materialistic, but who cares. That’s all I want for now.

Oh, and of course … world peace.

Thank you.

abang aris, my art director said with an annoyed smirk .. "budak ni tak abis abis lah dengan iPod dia!" barangsiapa yang ada iPod atau yang setaraf dengannya sure'll understand my obsession with it.

but im starting to miss it now. currently, my preciousss is at the Mac centre here near the office. just a few minutes ago, i went down to the ground floor to ask them why dont any itunes in the entire office recognize my ipod. ok i lied. not the entire office lah but just one mac which supports my ipod. boggled as i was, he tried it on his mac and true enough there's something wrong with my precious.

they gotta keep it there for a while to check whats wrong with it and if im lucky, i'd get a new one. but im gonna be ipodless until next week since they cant order new anythings until the 4th of April coz apparently apple worldwide is upgrading. sigh. i forsee my morning lrt rides to be such a drag.

so look forward to me whining and bitching about people like as though im such a barbie again, ok?