dejavu

so .. i heard through the grapevine that quite a considerable number of people are leaving for good. some because they've found greener pastures and better prospects somewhere else. some because they feel like they've been unjustly attacked by everyone else. some feel like they can't stand working with everyone else. i dont see them as cowards. i have to say.. i kinda respect for them for having the guts to leave. unlike me. chicken shit.

i'm seriously thinking about leaving too, though. not because i'm jumping the bandwagon ... but because i don't think i can cope with work and the people at work anymore. the workload has doubled, the stress is intensifying, the crap that comes along with it keeps on multiplying, the people are becoming more and more intorable which i dont think is ever gonna change.

although im not doing any campaigns anymore .. im starting to feel that mainstream-anxiety i once had while i was at mainstream. the anxiety i thought i've'd escape from. now, its kinda like dejavu. since the restructuring, i havent been able to get a peaceful sleep. i keep waking in the middle of the night like as if i had a bad dream .. kinda funny cause i cant even dream anymore.

urrgh!

anyway ... rant more later. gotta go meet those two penguins at klcc for kopi.